"I'm A Disgrace"*

Such turmoil today eating from the insides
An odd combination of opposites
propelling and paralyzing 
both ends in different directions

Being completely splattered over the walls
ceiling and floor
Six surfaces covered with everything
in uniform distribution

And being completely and perfectly
and safely at home centered
Balanced floating in peaceful comfort
Satisfaction enveloped warmly

A garden hose at full pressure
a text to dear friends to remember
that it's all just going to be okay
Adding caffeine to pyre

The questions arise about survival
the answers are ever-evident
Yes, survivors survive
and live to a million says the universe

When there is an absence of answers
Lowly time to probe meanings
Sometimes the best offense is
to retreat to familiar fortresses

*title borrowed from Eleanor Friedberger