All That I Have Left Perhaps - Ebb to the Flow

Terrible photographs processed so poorly on purpose
A look I tell myself that maybe is just a thing
But deep inside I know it is just not a thing at all
That my eye and brain are just slightly off
Slightly misaligned and slightly off game
Slightly searching slightly jealous slightly waiting

But what is different this time around
Is there is no panic that doom has arrived
That it is all over and is forever lost
I now know when a pause is that
Just a pause
And that is the very best thing ever