I remember being the special one
after I was the awkward one and
before I was the invisible one

Do to me whatever you will since
everything has already been done
to me and mine before and after

I just do not care anymore
while secretly always caring more
than is believed possible

Reparations for greedy decisions
playing god while praying god
chasm between forgiveness and none

The long long wake of
self-created disasters
drowning all short-term gain

Selfish profit for disproportionate few
at the expense of time and history
dirty dirty yet irresistible

It is in our inherent nature to
never reject game advantage
falling within rule structure or not

Through fortune and focus
some of us have figured it clear
to show others the code