like I was saying
hiding in plain sight
    or in plane sight
    just watching
interactions I have excluded myself from
but it puts me in an awkward place
people talking
this place is a bee hive

I can do it
I have done it
I know how to do it really well

but I’ve never particularly enjoyed it
(yet it can appear as if I’m in my element)

those who know me best know the performance
they watch the performance
    they give notes
        they hone it
            I’m their puppet